[ She shrugs. SHe doesn't really know the science behind it or anything. She's going to finish chewing her bite before she starts talking again. This pizza is good.. it's not solving all of her problems. ]
Uhhh... Maybe? Or maybe not. [ She makes a face. ] It stops really hurting after that and you start getting really weak and tired all the time and that's when you start losing weight. Your brain feels like it's in a fog the whole time, and it could be like 80 degrees out and it's freezing cold. Which sucks because at that point it becomes harder to motivate yourself to go after food. Obviously there's a lot of... feelings and head games you put yourself through.
[ She doesn't want to talk about that. The physical stuff is one thing, the fear and panic and anger and everything she wants to distance herself from. But she's not going to deny it happens. ]
It gets weird too because when you're at that point, if you eat and you don't know where to get food after that then your brain isn't working right so it's like, is it worse to go back to hurting or to not eat until you've got a steady source? But then you remember, "oh right I might die" and eat too fast and it comes back up because your stomach isn't ready for it.
[ She takes another bite.. obviously she has a strong stomach at this point to not be bothered at all by what she's talking about while eating. ]
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Uhhh... Maybe? Or maybe not. [ She makes a face. ] It stops really hurting after that and you start getting really weak and tired all the time and that's when you start losing weight. Your brain feels like it's in a fog the whole time, and it could be like 80 degrees out and it's freezing cold. Which sucks because at that point it becomes harder to motivate yourself to go after food. Obviously there's a lot of... feelings and head games you put yourself through.
[ She doesn't want to talk about that. The physical stuff is one thing, the fear and panic and anger and everything she wants to distance herself from. But she's not going to deny it happens. ]
It gets weird too because when you're at that point, if you eat and you don't know where to get food after that then your brain isn't working right so it's like, is it worse to go back to hurting or to not eat until you've got a steady source? But then you remember, "oh right I might die" and eat too fast and it comes back up because your stomach isn't ready for it.
[ She takes another bite.. obviously she has a strong stomach at this point to not be bothered at all by what she's talking about while eating. ]