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prismatica2020-07-01 12:13 pm
dereban) wrote in prismatica2020-07-01 12:13 pm
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Guess I'm living alone again, so if someone is in dire need of a roommate, I'm screening people, I guess.
On that note: if anybody knew Atsushi - the one that was living with me, the slightly darker, edgier one? He's gone now.
So, I should also ask: does anyone really believe that people who disappear from this place really 'go back home'?
On that note: if anybody knew Atsushi - the one that was living with me, the slightly darker, edgier one? He's gone now.
So, I should also ask: does anyone really believe that people who disappear from this place really 'go back home'?
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[When he hears her voice grow softer like that, he shifts to wrapping both arms around her, pulling her in closer.]
[She doesn't have to be okay. It's okay to not be okay. And as long as he's still here, he wants to be someone she can lean on, to hold the fragile pieces of her heart so she can express that pain without falling apart.]
[And even if she did -- he'd be there to put her back together.]
I'm sorry.
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[She's struggling to find the proper words to say as her voice seems to nearly edge towards something watery. As if making the attempt to choke back her feelings.
The words echo and reverberate in her mind.
it's not fair.
It really isn't. But...]
You shouldn't have to apologize... for something that isn't your fault, Ranpo.
[She buries her head in his shoulder to hide the tears, even if she knows he probably can tell they're there. It's fine.]
I... should be the one saying 'I'm sorry'.
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[He runs his hand down the back of her hair, hoping to soothe as he holds her. And he'll gladly hold her for as long as she needs tonight.]
But you're hurting. And I'm sorry there's nothing I can do or say to make things hurt less right now.
[Even trying to reassure her with platitudes like "you still have me" feel in poor taste, given it's not as though any of them have a choice in the matter.]
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[Even if she was wrong about what she was thinking -- that doesn't change her feelings on the matter in the slightest bit.]
Sometimes- [She takes a sharp breath through her nose, trying to steady herself. It doesn't help very much, though.] You have to go through shitty things. But if I can power through this, then... I'll become a stronger person for it. That's what's important.
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[This is a bad joke--]
But it's okay to hurt sometimes, too. Maybe it seems like a waste of time to sulk or cry about things you can't change, but... it does help to let it out.
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She doesn't know about that.
That's why she always tries to cover up her weaknesses. But let's not talk about that right now, or think about it.]
I know.
[That it's okay to feel this way, in spite of, well - everything.]
I just don't like it.
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[It wasn't a weakness to want to avoid dealing with pain. Knowing when to step back and not let it overwhelm you -- those were a type of strength, too.]
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I'd like that.
[Her voice is soft, too.
But, then, afterwards-]
... thank you.
I - really owe you one, again.
/wraps this up...!
Don't worry about it-- now come on, you're gonna hate this movie!
[--and then they watched a shitty movie and laughed about it for a few hours. And at least, for now, he was able to help her feel a bit better.]
[But unbeknownst to Inaba, Ranpo himself wouldn't cry over Atsushi's disappearance until he was home and by himself.]