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prismatica2020-01-14 04:28 am
coralroot) wrote in prismatica2020-01-14 04:28 am
text | un: no1bananaslut
hey i usually do video or whatever but i've straight up spent the last couple of hours just crying and eating ice cream
and uh
shit gets really dark so here we go?
has anyone else had to deal with
like before i came here i made a deal with some kind of
entity?
for power? idk i don't remember the details
and i got some sweet stuff but then i had to live out the same three months that came after OVER AND OVER
you don't understand
every time the three months were over i'd just go straight back to the first day of those 90 days like nothing happened
i kept seeing my friends die and then at the end of the cycle they came back which was nice until they kept DYING AGAIN
i died myself like 80 times
the first time i thought it would be over but NOPE, BACK ON DAY ONE AGAIN
the second time i literally jumped off a cliff to see if it would happen again AND IT DID
there's a lot i don't remember
none of my actions had consequences anymore
my mind went some really weird places then
like i could just straight up murderize everyone in a village and it's not like they're REALLY dead, so whatever
we talked a lot about birthdays, right?
i don't even know how old i'm supposed to be anymore
am i just 17 forever?
am i like hundreds of years old now?
does it even matter?
anyway sorry idk where i'm going with this
and uh
shit gets really dark so here we go?
has anyone else had to deal with
like before i came here i made a deal with some kind of
entity?
for power? idk i don't remember the details
and i got some sweet stuff but then i had to live out the same three months that came after OVER AND OVER
you don't understand
every time the three months were over i'd just go straight back to the first day of those 90 days like nothing happened
i kept seeing my friends die and then at the end of the cycle they came back which was nice until they kept DYING AGAIN
i died myself like 80 times
the first time i thought it would be over but NOPE, BACK ON DAY ONE AGAIN
the second time i literally jumped off a cliff to see if it would happen again AND IT DID
there's a lot i don't remember
none of my actions had consequences anymore
my mind went some really weird places then
like i could just straight up murderize everyone in a village and it's not like they're REALLY dead, so whatever
we talked a lot about birthdays, right?
i don't even know how old i'm supposed to be anymore
am i just 17 forever?
am i like hundreds of years old now?
does it even matter?
anyway sorry idk where i'm going with this
Re: voice
Almost like it's name didn't really matter and it was some sort of weird placeholder.
voice
Re: voice
We haven't been in contact since I got here.
voice
[ That's what he meant, pretty much. ]
It sounds as though you've been granted a reprieve in coming here.
Re: voice
I'd say I hope so, but everything about this place still feels kinda off.
voice
no subject
A lot of it seems too good to be true? Not only with me having to hug people for money and everything but also just. Moving forward.
Moving forward feels great.
But it's still the realest any thing's felt in a while.
Like everything else I've known up until this point was a weird dream.
no subject
[ The moonlacing, he means. ]
I can understand how living in real time is jarring after existing in a loop.