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I'm sick of trying to feel better about everything and being kind and showing everyone oh look moonblessed are harmless teehee let's just

be angry

anon is fine

come tell me who or what makes you angry, get it out there

[ Emerald is not anon, but she doesn't mind if any characters are. Unless otherwise stated, please assume she is not responding anonymously. She doesn't know how to cope with feelings of loss, so this is the best and most productive thing she could think of to try to get it out without wanting to punch everyone she speaks to in the face like she has for the past couple of weeks. So please, vent with her and be angry. ]

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That's one way to get out of a test.

[ She's heard they kind of suck. She totally gets that though. Everything she's done past theft has been for someone else, after all. ]

That's it? So you're like, baby criminal. [ Baby's first arson. ]

That’s it? No, that isn’t it.

[ seimei’s smile spreads, almost menacingly, but he doesn’t really have any interest in explaining everything else about himself.

he lets it hang just long enough to make it seem like he’s going to, though; like he’s going to brag about all the blood on his hands and all the torture that he’s put others through, but that reveals too much. saying that he set fire because of a crush is almost sweet, he thinks. ]

I told you, I looked at my mother’s diary! That’s worse than anything you’ve done. [ teasing, teasing, but he needs to redirect. ] Oh, I threw away a gift that my brother received once. It’s not a crime, but it’s pretty terrible, don’t you think?

[ Emerald wouldn't hold it against him if he did. She thinks he's kind of funny though. ]

Yeah, you shouldn't betray those close to you. What'd you do that for?

[ She reaches over to flick him in the arm. On the grand scale of betrayals that's definitely more of a minor annoyance, but he's obviously teasing so she's got to tease him back. ]

Ow.

[ seimei is not hurt at all by her flick, and because it’s on his arm and not somewhere more precious, he doesn’t seem bothered by having his personal space breached. ]

I didn’t like that a girl gave him chocolates. He’s only in elementary school. He’s too young to be thinking about girlfriends.

[ She's really only a hazard to arms if it's friendly harassment, so he'll be fine then. ]

Hm.. as long as you got him some chocolates from you after.

Oh no. I didn’t.

[ seimei makes a good show of pretending he’s devastated by the realization, even slanting his ears back, but he’s only mildly bothered that he didn’t actually think about doing it. he wonders if ritsuka would accept some belated chocolate from his terrible brother. ]

How will he ever forgive me? How will you?

It's cute how much you care about him.

[ She looks interested honestly. And she explains a little. ]

It's obvious, I'll bet he'd forgive you for anything.

Hm?

[ it’s true. seimei cares about ritsuka more than anything—but her observation catches him off guard, because it’s precisely what’s been weighing on his mind. the seimei that ritsuka knows is not the person that seimei actually is. he doesn’t know if ritsuka can forgive that. ]

I hope so. I love him more than anything else in the world.

[ a rare moment of honest vulnerability, from seimei. ]

For me, that’s what love is… forgiving someone no matter what they’ve done. If he can give that to me, I’ll never ask for anything ever again. [ sensing himself losing control of the situation, though, he holds up a hand. ] …but please remember that I’m trying to look like I don’t care about anything.

Me too. [ She gets that. Maybe not in a familial way, though she tries with Cinder. ]

When Seijuro... when I first told Seijuro what I'd done, he looked at me like I was a monster. I only told him because I wanted to help him with something happened to him that's my specialty and he had no means to understand. He didn't speak to me for weeks, but eventually..

[ She smiles, but it's pained. Even if Akashi comes back, he could not remember her, and all of that would be erased because this world didn't feel it needed him anymore. She digs her nails into her palm trying to prevent that anger from rising again. Seimei sure doesn't deserve it. ]

I think you're right. But I won't tell anyone if you won't.

[ with nisei, seimei would tell him that it’s foolish to expect normal people to understand what he’s done, and what he wants. with emerald, he senses an emotional core there that he doesn’t think he’s ready to dig at just yet—another day, maybe, when she trusts him more. ]

Hmm.

[ seimei doesn’t say anything just yet, mulling over the kind of person emerald might be. she’s done terrible things and doesn’t seem ashamed of it, but her approach to it all… even her anger now… seimei doesn’t know what to make of it.

when he finally speaks, his voice is quiet, and he’s looking ahead, rather than at her. ]

I’ll promise to be so unpleasant that you don’t get attached to me at all, and when I disappear, it actually makes you feel better.

[ …he smirks, and glances over at her. ]

That’s fun, right?

[ She waits quietly for him to decide what he wants to say, but she gives him a sour, mildly exasperated look at what he says. ]

I've threatened to cut body parts off of way scarier people than you.

[ Not fun, she doesn't like being harassed. ]

Hahaha!

[ when that doesn’t work, he lets the act drop—it’s all pretty meaningless to him, but he thought it was worth a shot. ]

That’s not very nice. I was trying to make you feel better. But I don’t really mind if you threaten me. My coworkers had a whole murder plot going.

Who needs a plot? I've got guns in my bag.

[ Well, sort of. They're a little more than normal guns. They're kusarigama-revolvers. ]

I'm kidding, [ about hurting him, not about being armed ] but don't do that.

Right, right. You want to be normal friends.

[ seimei can do that, he supposes. ]

Ah, but you might still want to murder me anyway, if we go that route.

I-- wait, what kind of mind trick is that? You're the one who's been pursuing me, remember? I just think you're okay.

[ she points at him as if she's caught him trying to trick her into friendship!! Sneaky!! ]

[ seimei breaks into something that could almost be a real smile, if the way his ears perk up is anything to judge by. he’s pleased to be accused. ]

I almost had you, didn’t I?

I'm gonna pinch you again.

[ It's just a threat this time though. When she actually does it, she doesn't warn. ]

What? You’re so cruel. You really are a terrible criminal.

[ he’s having fun, which means he needs to get up and get out of here before he has a sincere feeling. ]

Please don’t let that pizza go to waste.

I won't.

[ She reaches for her tote bag to stick the box in there, though she has to arrange her stuff in there to get it to the bottom, but she's careful not to show it. It definitely sounds more like clanking metal than normal purse contents.

Finally she says what she probably should've a while ago: ]

Thank you, Seimei.

[ She may be a street rat, but she still has manners. ]

[ they really have bonded over this little conversation, haven’t they? seimei is sure she’s still hurting and will for a while longer yet, but without knowing—or caring—who seijuro and the other one she mentioned are, it’s decidedly not his problem. ]

You don’t have to.

[ thank him, he means. ]

Though I’ve exhausted my ability to be nice for today. Are you going back home?

For now. I've been staying out a lot but I think I can handle it for a while.

[ She has so much anger but she doesn't want to turn into Mercury's family either. She won't let herself take it out on Chihiro, which may have made it a little worse since she's not leaning on him as much as she should.

But at the very least, Seimei managed to can her down for the time being. At least enough to go see him. ]

[ seimei observes her silently, for just a moment longer, and then he nods—apparently satisfied with whatever he’s seen. ]

I can’t invite you to my home. [ he’ll put that out right now. no one is ever visiting him. ] But if you ever need my company, you do have my contact. I’ll respond if I feel like it.

[ he smiles when he says it, and then he raises his hand to wave her off. ]

See you around, Emerald.

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