prismatica | anonymous text post

That's a pretty generalized subject, isn't it? There's always the kind of pain and what brings it on to consider when thinking on it.

Temporary pain doesn't feel like much of anything at all, but something that's a mix of physical and psychological can have an interesting effect.

Is temporary pain like that no matter how intense? Does it have to have a mix to result in an "interesting effect"?

I guess not for everyone, but for me it's just a passing thought. I don't go out to look for it, but when it happens it's hardly something that takes my focus away from what I'm doing. In fact, depending on the situation it could feel pretty good.

I have only felt pain that had any lasting effects once in my life, since it was an intense moment I feel what I suppose others would call a phantom pain. It's not just a memory, it's just being submerged in the moment with the scent and every feeling of flesh being torn apart.

first I ever heard of "phantom pain." is it like a flashback like rewatching things from your pov or actually full-sensory? somewhere in between?

It's definitely full-sensory, the glow of the fire lighting the dim room, the scent of blood spilling, even to the feeling of hands reaching inside and taking everything they can out. I have medication to help with this, though one of the side effects are very vivid nightmares of that time, but the withdrawal is far worse and brings me right back there again to the point of wanting to feeling like I want to die, but I really don't since I have someone I have to live for.

That description makes a person wonder how someone could survive "the feeling of hands reaching inside and taking everything they can out."

The answer is barely. I had the fortune of being saved by an amazing man just in time, he was able to make me all the new parts I had lost and so much more.

you're not a cyborg are you?

Hardly, I'm all flesh and blood.

weird. I've heard of organ transplants, but growing parts to replace lost ones is mostly new.

I told you he was an amazing man, but that's getting away from your original topic, isn't it? Why are you so interested in the thoughts others have on pain? Do you not have any thoughts yourself?

I have plenty of my own.

Then it's just curiosity. Would it be too much to ask what some of your own are, it's okay if it's some you may deem unimportant in comparison.

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people expect others to view pain the same way they do and look at you funny when you don't. worse, they might fear you. life is by nature unfair, enough so that when someone hurts others, sometimes their intent at the time matters for the resulting consequences, sometimes it doesn't.

pain is proof you're alive and a part of the same world as everyone else.

People are imperfect, the sooner they realize that the better it would be for those who don't fit into perceptions.

Although I have to agree, feeling pain makes me feel alive, makes me feel like I'm doing something other than just existing. Though that's more for myself than it is for anyone else.

You have very interesting thoughts, and not something I expect to hear from many others. But I appreciate them, and the fact that you were willing to share them.

my thoughts on the subject being atypical is something I know all too well.

As someone who has to work hard at fitting in, I find this very comforting. Being here has allowed me to find one or two people that are accepting when pretenses are dropped, and that seems to be the one redeeming aspect of this place.

"the one redeeming aspect" huh?

The one. Being separated from someone important is a drawback that's much too big in order to find much else comforting in this world.

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