prismatica | anonymous text post

It's the first thing I thought of
But I've never been in much physical pain
Maybe people who have been in accidents or have other injuries think about it differently

I'm glad though
I don't want anyone to relate to those feelings
But I'm glad they got across to you

I don't know. To me... pain is physical, isn't it? I... I don't know but the way you talked about that hole. It feels more physical than not. I don't know...

Oh. I... I relate just. I don't know. This is hard to put into words, you're right about that.

Mmm... It can be physical too, I think
Even if there isn't an actual hole, it hurts if your heart feels empty

Sometimes your whole body is sluggish and heavy and it's hard to get out of bed
Or thinking about something upsetting can make your stomach feel sick
Your chest tightens and your eyes sting like you're about to cry

Things like that, maybe

...Isn't that worse? At least if you break a leg or get stabbed it will heal but those ...
holes? I don't know.

They don't go away.

If you've been hurt badly enough they'll always be there
You'll always be reminded that they're there
Every single day

But it's okay to live with those holes
And find something else worth living for

Something else? Anything else?

Yeah
Anything

I don't know if I'm an optimistic person
I don't think I am
But I want to be

It's not impossible to keep living
And start smiling again

Oh.

I wonder about that. I don't know if it is.

Mmm...
Everyone's different
And I don't want to be overbearing
Because I know more than anyone how tiring it is to have people act like they understand when they don't know anything about you
But I think it's worth trying
One day at a time
And see what happens

I'm not good at this kind of thing
But it's easier to talk without my name attached
You don't have to hold anything back either

I won't ask who you are, I... I think I'd rather not know if you're happier like this.

I think your words make sense but I don't know... I don't think I could do the same.

Why?
You don't have to be happy or expect that things will magically get better
You don't have to pretend you're okay

Even if you do nothing all day, just getting through to the next one is enough
Sometimes that's all you can do

I have a lot of responsibilities, and I don't know anything and — and I do have to pretend as best as I can because — because I have to.

This might not make sense but when you're a sect leader, people depend on you and you have to pretend. You have to be smart and strong and wise like my brother and his sworn brothers.

[It takes Mafuyu several minutes to respond, brows knit on the other side of the screen as he thinks of what to say. Really, trying to spout off the things that other people have told him isn't fair to someone in a completely different situation, and acting like he fully believes every word of what he's saying isn't entirely fair either.]

I'm bad at showing my emotions
So I might be pretending too
I think I'm pretending right now, just a little
And saying some of this to make myself feel better about being here
I can't really tell

We're different
I don't know what it's like to be a leader and have to live up to anything
When my boyfriend died I stayed home and sat in my room in the dark for days
Maybe that's a privilege

But even if I don't understand anything
One thing I do know is that you have to keep living
Or else no one will understand you

I am sorry that you also lost someone important. Maybe we are different but

but maybe our grief makes us similar? I never really talked about this before - I couldn't. [ in some ways, he can't, still. ] I understand what you're saying, and I

I don't think you are wrong. For what's worth, I don't know anything much about you but I am sorry for your loss.

I couldn't talk about it either
It felt like I kept it inside forever
But I found an outlet to express those feelings
And then opened up a little to two important people over time

Thank you
It's ok
I'm sorry for yours too
Maybe we are similar
If we understand heartbreak like that

If you've never talked about it before it's going to be hard
And it's going to hurt a lot
But maybe you should try
Just a little

I will... think about it. That's all I can promise, I don't know - I don't know anything else, but it's good to know that at least for someone it gets better.

You don't have to promise me anything
Just get through each day
That's enough

anonymous text post

I don't know about you, but my heart is already in pieces.

sounds legit THIS ANIME WAS SO PAINFUL AND GOOD

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baby ;-;

He's trying his best...

HE IS THE BEST

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