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I'm sick of trying to feel better about everything and being kind and showing everyone oh look moonblessed are harmless teehee let's just
be angry
anon is fine
come tell me who or what makes you angry, get it out there
[ Emerald is not anon, but she doesn't mind if any characters are. Unless otherwise stated, please assume she is not responding anonymously. She doesn't know how to cope with feelings of loss, so this is the best and most productive thing she could think of to try to get it out without wanting to punch everyone she speaks to in the face like she has for the past couple of weeks. So please, vent with her and be angry. ]
be angry
anon is fine
come tell me who or what makes you angry, get it out there
[ Emerald is not anon, but she doesn't mind if any characters are. Unless otherwise stated, please assume she is not responding anonymously. She doesn't know how to cope with feelings of loss, so this is the best and most productive thing she could think of to try to get it out without wanting to punch everyone she speaks to in the face like she has for the past couple of weeks. So please, vent with her and be angry. ]
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Let's do that. I want to douse something in it and throw it in to see if it'll explode.
[ Otherwise she's just getting flashbacks to trying to start a fire in an alley trash can so she didn't freeze to death when she was younger. She doesn't sound super excited or anything, but she's putting effort in to try this. ]
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You wanna keep an eye on this and I'll go grab some? I won't be more than five minutes, and I've got Chroma to burn. [All he had to do was look for a bottle of liquid that had a big fire symbol with a bunch of warning labels, right? Piece of cake.] Probably not a good idea if we leave a fire unattended, even if it's contained.
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[ To help contain it.. she'll give it a wide breadth though so they can go to town but.. it's probably better to not make it really really easy to start a wildfire or something that gets out of their control. ]
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[True to his word, Lio only spent five to ten minutes down the road, shopping at the nearest convenience corner shop, coming back with an armful of charcoal, and a shopping bag with like four bottles of lighter fluid. They were lucky it was barbeque season.]
Here. This should be more than enough. Not sure if anything will explode, unless you want me to grab some propane, but it's probably not a good idea if we're trying not to get caught.
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Well, if nothing explodes, it'll be a bigger fire?
[ Or some wooshes maybe.. she's definitely not a pyromaniac. What she is is someone who is going to take one of those bottles and start dousing some junk with the intention of throwing it at the fire-- which is still going at about the same level as it was before. ]
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Lio wasn't going to question it.
Instead he was going to start grabbing more scrap to throw in, gathering it together for Emerald to start dousing as well.]
Should we try to keep it in the drum? Safer, maybe. Not as satisfying, but safer.
[God he hoped Galo didn't find out about this somehow.]
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[ What Emerald wants to do is decidedly not fire safety oriented. Once she has doused her item in the lighter fluid, she picks it up and does a jump shot to throw it into the current fire, which bursts into embers and bigger flames for the duration of the lighter fluid bring burned up. ]
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Lio followed Emerald's lead, wadding up some newspaper that he'd coated in the stuff, and tossing it high into the air, watching it arc into the drum. The flames jumped once more, licking upwards happily at the fuel.
Lio should have found himself smiling. Instead he was frowning, gritting his teeth.]
... Let's make it a competition. Whoever can get the flame to jump highest is the winner.
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Like that was definitely not fire safety 101. But that's her best idea to jump the flame as high as she can.
(Or maybe wide? She doesn't know.) ]
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Wait, I don't think you should -
[And into the fire it went, Lio's mouth a bit agape as he grabbed Emerald by the arm to drag her even further back. And, roughly twenty seconds later, it did indeed explode - loud and high and spraying flaming debris all across the alley.]
Fuck!
[Lio went to grab a nearby bucket of water he'd set aside just in case, dousing the worst of the flames, while working to stomp on some of the other embers with his thick soled boots.]
Fine, you win! This was a stupid idea!
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The trash fire was depressing anyway.
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And the guilt at causing a fire hazard while dating a firefighter was starting to really eat at him. The explosion had just been a really hard kick to his conscience.
He let out an exasperated sigh.]
I hope you got something out of this. I didn't. Sorry I dragged you out here, Emerald.
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[ She's fine with that. It's not him that she's complaining about. After a couple of seconds she adds: ]
I used to set fires in barrels like that when I was younger. It's a good way to keep warm on the streets, but now it's just.. [ Not something she wants to go back to. ]
It doesn't matter. My heart's pounding, so at least that's not anger for a few minutes.
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He beat one more of the smoldering fires with his own jacket. The thing was probably better suited to the job anyway, being made of some pretty advanced fireproof material.]
Sorry, to bring back bad memories. I grew up homeless, too, and on the run.
[Lio snatched his jacket back up, brushing the soot off the interior.]
I mostly lived out in the desert, though. Less cops out there trying to hunt us. We only ever stopped by towns to steal supplies, so I didn't make the connection between a trash fire in an alley and homelessness.
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I didn't have a choice but to live in a city. Our world is infested with monsters that can sense negative emotions. Living outside of city barriers is a death sentence for anyone on their own, but especially if you're Grimm bait.
[ Being scared and starving and alone and hurt and angry didn't make Emerald the most attractive company. With most of the outer flames out she looks at her jacket and just tosses it into the barrel. Hers is decidedly not fireproof, so there's no sense in keeping it now. ]
Avoiding cops and stealing were my bread and butter though. [ She lets out a bitter puff of a laugh. ] I liked going for jewelry or things I could fence. That way the people with the food didn't have a reason to call the cops on me.
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We burnish were the ones seen as the monsters. I know a great deal that tried to hide what they were after they awakened, go about their normal lives keeping their powers a secret, but one way or another they were always caught.
Our bodies would run internal temperatures over 500 degrees Farenheit, so any simple heat tracking equipment would out us... Not to mention the urge to burn would sometimes overwhelm people to the point of resulting in literal explosions. It just wasn't option for us to hide in plain sight.
[He fiddled with the earring on his left ear as memories flooded his mind.]
So... I can't say I have any experience in fencing, for that reason. Most of the time we could only steal necessities - food, clothing, equipment, vehicles. Things we could take back to our camps. There were a lot of years where I did it alone. Well, alone except for my 'spooky kid ghosts'.
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[ Emerald doesn't really seem bothered by him. The one person she believes loves her back home is turning into a literal monster and everything she knew about the world was a lie, worrying about if someone was part fireball part horror movie just sounds tiring. ]
I can make a person see and hear anything I want, but only one or two people at a time.
[ There's not much point in hiding it anymore. She's been outed to her enemies, and she's promised not to be a criminal anymore. It seems pointless now, but she isn't the type to back out of her word easily. ]
It's a lot easier to steal a little small thing worth a lot that way as long as a store isn't busy [ because she can't do more than that without seriously hurting herself-- two people is asking for a migraine as is ] but I also didn't have anyone else to steal for.
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[Lio furrowed a brow at her curiously when she admitted the existence of her powers, almost not sure what to make of them. Making a person hallucinate seemed like a... well, useful skill. Maybe not even something that necessarily had solely malicious applications, either.]
... I'm almost curious to experience that myself - not that I'd ask you to spend the Chroma just to sate my curiosity. But being able to convey something to someone just using your mind... I'm sure a lot of artists would kill for that kind of power. Was it something you were born with?
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[ She had two boyfriends until recently and gets chroma out of consensual fighting with people on top of that. She doesn't sleep alone. She's not balling like some of the super rich people here, but she's never super worried about using her semblance or aura. At least with just one person.
She's pretty sure she'd die if she tried to use 9 with chroma involved or something. It's not that she can't, after all, it's just... dangerous without chroma involved. One mind connecting to multiple minds doesn't go very well. ]
Uh.. [ How does she answer that? She never actually went to school, and she doesn't think there's really a known answer anyway. But she has thoughts. So she just starts with the base explanation. ]
In my world, people adapted to be capable of bearing our souls forward as an aura. Aura can be used as a shield or to add force into a weapon or an attack, and anyone who's activated their aura has a unique ability called a semblance. It's not super well-researched I think and like.. most of what's publicly known is a complete lie anyway, but my theory is that we're born with the capability, but as you grow up it becomes whatever defense mechanism you need to survive impending trauma.
[ She shrugs. ] That's the only way I think it makes sense anyway.. like, mine I needed to be able to hide and steal and create distractions because there was no one else to help me- so I could make people and things up. Someone else I know got struck my lightning and now she can absorb electricity and convert it to strength. I saw another person watch his friend run through with a spear and he could suddenly heal her.
[ Well, she doesn't know what the exact details of that one are. It wasn't healing exactly, but that's what it looked like to her. ] There's no proof, but that's what I think.
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[Lio listened, as she explained. He'd said more than enough about himself and his own world, he absolutely didn't mind hearing about hers in return. If anything, hearing about other worlds so insanely different from his own fascinated him. He thought he would have stopped being so surprised by now, but it seemed like people never failed to impress him with their stories.]
That's amazing. I awoke to my abilities, too - we burnish weren't born being able to synchronize with the Promare, even though it was labeled a mutation for a really long time. It's just that some humans were more susceptible to it at differing points in their lives. For me, I awoke when I was a child. For many others, they were adults with completely normal lives before they awoke.
I don't know if there was any rhyme or reason to it... the research was kept hidden by the government, and the one researcher that had done the most work on our behalf was murdered. So I'm no stranger to having to figure this stuff out through anecdotes.
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That's the extent of the people she cares about from her world, and she's going to get upset if she shows him Akashi. She doesn't want to expose Mayuzumi to someone she just met while he's still at risk (she's protective) and while there are others she could show who she's come to like here, she ends up deciding to go with a slightly more playful solution.
Lio's own voice comes from behind him, plain as if he had been the one to say it, and when he turns around, it'll look like there's a clone of him standing right behind him, smirking.
"That's a pretty personal question. Her world's situation is complicated."
If he looks to Emerald, she doesn't really look like she's doing anything. Sometimes she'll touch her temple if she does something complicated, but it's not necessary beyond helping her focus. She doesn't need to focus much right now since she's just replicating what she sees in his head. It looks and sounds perfectly real. Though it does require concentration, so her response to what he says is a little shorter than it might've been otherwise. ]
One day I'm going to run into someone whose government isn't keeping world-breaking secrets.
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Sorry, I didn't mean to pry. I just didn't want you to think I was asking you to do something with your powers for my sake - I wouldn't ask you something selfish like showing me my own fantasies. That's really incredible, though.
[He turned back to his clone, reaching out to touch it, to see if it would even feel solid or if it really was just a hallucination.]
You get the feeling this world is the same way? That there's something they're not telling us?
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It's fine. I'm a villain in my world and everything here is... exploding trash fire mood.
[ She knows she's on the wrong side of things but she doesn't think anyone's right really. She's watched the world burn and her partner and leader laugh and smile, and she couldn't. She doesn't belong there. But that's also a betrayal of that person she cares about enough to become a murderer, because she promised to go with Seijuro and Chihiro and put all of that behind her. Now Seijuro is gone, and it all feels like she's losing everything important to her bit by bit. Personal right now is.. a bit much. ]
Definitely. They're committing mass-kidnapping but acting like we're on some kind of sexy vacation and providing us with everything so we don't ask questions while asking us for free military support. It's suspicious.
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[Being the leader of what was labeled a terrorist group would get you pegged with that label pretty hard. There were still people in Lio's world that believed he ought to be behind bars right alongside the person who actually did the most harm and damage, despite Lio's efforts literally saving the planet from complete destruction. Ignorant minds just weren't so easy to change.
He nodded to Emerald's assessment.]
I don't trust them either. I'm concerned with how they're handling their energy shortages too. They have mass incarceration of their own people happening right below our feet. [Lio stomped on the ground a few times to emphasize that the Lightless was literally just beneath them.] And from everything I've heard, resources to the Lightless are purposefully limited to the bare minimum, and it's made impossibly difficult to get out once you're down there. I'm hoping I can do something about it.
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[ Emerald's villainy isn't something she can say is for a good cause. It's a completely selfish venture. ]
What are you thinking of doing?
[ Emerald.. wouldn't be against helping with something like that. She's not sure if it's just because it would be something to throw herself into to distract herself or because she genuinely thinks that it's unfair. Part of her just wants to follow someone else's direction right now so she stops feeling so lost. ]
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