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I guess this is more for those of us who come from worlds where there's some catastrophe or some world-ending thing happening and you're generally working to try and save your world from aforementioned catastrophe ...

I've been here for a few months now, and I kind of feel like I don't know what to do with myself. I went from having too much to do, too much to worry about, and now I'm in a position where I don't have that anymore (with the exception of the occasional weirdness that happens here, of course). I think I've read enough books that I've probably caused myself some major eye strain in the months I've been here, but otherwise I'm not exactly sure what to do with myself.

Does anyone else feel kind of like this? I think it might help me feel better to know I'm not alone in this.

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I'm going to preface this by noting that I know of, and know-know, quite a few people who are in a similar boat.

I'd compare it to a stress response - you've been in a high-stress, high-stakes situation long enough that being separated from it isn't bringing catharsis, but a sort of dread.

[Considering what Pidonus has mentioned of the world she was on before this one, the subtext is that she was in a similar place.]

Finding a good source of catharsis... That's the tricky spot.

... That. That sounds exactly like how I've been feeling. It's this feeling of dread over having been in this heightened state of awareness, I guess? And now that I'm not in that situation, I still feel like I need to do something about it.

The worst of it is that when I go back home, that problem will still be there. We're going to have to go back to panicking over having so much to do and so much on the line once this place decides to let us go.

Yup. Personally... I'd love to go back to the Rift, help save that world, but nothing terrifies me more than the prospect of being sent all the way back to my original home.

Saving the world's one thing. Being hunted down for finding something out, quite another.

Yikes. Yeah, I'd probably not want to go back to my home world if that were the case.

So you were in a different world before this one? You might have told me about this before.

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The situation is not quite the same, but I am used to traveling between worlds that have already gone through their catastrophes, in order to clean up the mess. Being somewhere so alive and well is... an adjustment.

I'd say it's similar enough. This place is pretty well-adjusted in comparison to some of the stuff we've dealt with, so it's different.

I'm also kind of feeling this lingering feeling of needing to prepare for the worst? Does that make sense? I feel like I have to be prepared for something to happen, but when I really stop and think about it, I don't actually know what that something is supposed to be.

Normally, if things are peaceful for too long, it means that something worse is coming. Does it not?

That's usually true, yeah. It's probably not a bad thing to be prepared for something, but it's still annoying.

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sure do

i don't know if it's 100% working yet, but trying to go back to my old job before things went to shit helps... a little?

Oh, good? I guess? Not good that we're feeling that way, but kind of good that we're not alone in feeling it.

What did you do before? You know, that you're doing again now.

trust me I know what you mean. but mine's more along the lines of
zombies
and zombie apocalypses

i worked in the news. tv news production specifically. i've been bouncing around different stations and networks here but i'm getting pretty similar works. news is news anyway.

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i kno what u could do ;)

Get out.

so cruel

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I have been drinking.

It helps significantly.

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I ... guess that would, yes. I'm not a big drinker.

Fortunately, it is not an activity that requires experience.

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It helps to have something to work on, I think. Something you can lose yourself in so that your body and mind can finally relax.

When everything was resolved back home, there was rebuilding to do, then other projects to try and fix the things that went wrong in that time. It was the only thing that kept me moving, after there wasn't a need to fight any more.

I don't know if I'd ever be able to relax, if the Fight were still going on. It's hard enough to relax even now, 15 years later.

At least your world's fight was resolved by the time you got here, right? Mine is still in progress. I don't even really know how we're going to fix things.

Obviously, while I'm here I can't exactly focus on that ... I need to find something to do while I'm here that can be at least kind of productive.

My home world is always in some crisis or another. When I first came here, the problems I left behind seemed to shadow me. I left a war and came to a place of pure idyll.

A year on, I still feel guilty that I'm not back there helping. But you can only solve the problems in front of you, and you can only live in the possible and the now. So you should think about what you'd want for yourself if you didn't have to worry about catastrophe, because right now--you don't.

Yeah, I've realized that.

I always imagined I'd focus on regaining the magic I'd lost back home when I had the time, but I'm not sure if that's something I can really do here. Different world and all. I seem to be able to use my abilities just fine, but as for gaining anything new back ... Not sure how that would work.

I guess I just have to figure something else out for now.

I don't know about getting back what you lost, but there's no shortage of magic here. It's possible that you could learn something entirely new.

But, supposing that isn't the case, either ... what else in life makes you happy?

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I can understand suddenly having more time than you're used to. However, I've found that it makes me more appreciative of the time I have now. Perhaps it's because I have never been a particularly ambitious person. A quiet life is something I would have preferred, had I ever been given the chance.

But if you want things to occupy your time, perhaps picking up some hobbies? I've found some people to teach me languages I don't know. I've also taken to raising hens.

What I am saying is, perhaps you can think about how you might have wanted to live if you had been allowed the luxury to choose.

That seems to be the general consensus here, yes. Find something to do, basically. It's just a matter of figuring that out.

Making a list is a good place to start. Or ask the people around you what they like to do and start there.

You could also look up a list, cross out all the things you know you don't want to do and then pick from whatever is left. Sometimes deciding on what you don't want to do is easier than what you do want to do.

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