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I'm sick of trying to feel better about everything and being kind and showing everyone oh look moonblessed are harmless teehee let's just

be angry

anon is fine

come tell me who or what makes you angry, get it out there

[ Emerald is not anon, but she doesn't mind if any characters are. Unless otherwise stated, please assume she is not responding anonymously. She doesn't know how to cope with feelings of loss, so this is the best and most productive thing she could think of to try to get it out without wanting to punch everyone she speaks to in the face like she has for the past couple of weeks. So please, vent with her and be angry. ]

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Nope
I'm done trying to feel better about it so I just want to get pissed off.

Um
Okay

Are you sure?

You can use your own post
And get angry too

My kind of angry involves wanting to remove body parts from people who annoy me during Sanguis, so I'm aiming to commiserate.
Which apparently no one wants to.

[ During Sanguis. Right. She's never threatened to do it outside of that hahahaha... Nope.

She has issues ok. ]

[Well, that's certainly one way to answer! And although it probably isn't that strange by now, once again, it takes Mafuyu a few minutes to respond.]

I'm
Not really angry about anything

Don't remove body parts

But
If you don't talk about it
No one will understand

I think
It feels better
To talk about it
If you want

This whole world is built on a lie.
It wants us to be intimate and attached and then it takes those people away because they aren't useful anymore.
Talking about that isn't going to change anything.

It's hard
Mmn...
Maybe I'm angry about that after all

But it's more lonely than anything

Sorry
That you lost someone important

Yeah.
I spent my whole life without anyone until recently and ever since I've started finding anyone, they get torn away.
If I find out who decides who goes home and who stays here, they're going to find out just how angry I am.
They're the ones who should be sorry.

I know
But I'm still sorry

Losing someone hurts
A lot
When you don't get to say goodbye

I hope they come back
So you can be together

Yeah? What happens when he comes back and doesn't remember me?

...
I... don't know

But can't people come back?
With memories?
So maybe

yeah sometimes
seems like most of the time they don't

Mmn...

It would be good if I had something to get angry about
So we could be angry together

can i just list a bunch of things that tick me off then?

Yeah
Go ahead

people who are happy all the time
people who think the average person is good when most of them wouldn't lend a hand to someone who needs help unless they can get glory for it, even if it would take little to no effort
cabbage- it is pointless
headaches
self-induced headaches (they're a thing)
the dozens of heroes here who all haven't even TRIED to do a thing about why we're all stuck here
btsb pre-brainwashing attempt
btsb post-brainwashing attempt
rich people with no understanding how real people live
the people who let ^ happen
people who can't take ribbing and smack talk
moonblessed who start acting like the animal they get features from- unless you want me to start calling you a bitch, stop acting like a dog
moon knights which btw you can completely bribe
people who skateboard/bike/rollerblade in crowds
mercury's sex life
abusers
those stupid chapsticks that come in little bowls and you have to get them all over your fingers to put them on
people who think there's anything wrong with sitting on the floor
people who think if you work hard things will automatically get better as if it's your fault for every bad thing that's ever happened to you
when people who go to bed at a reasonable time call themselves "old ladies" like they're special for sleeping before midnight
people who wake up before 8am like they actually have something to do but they're not doctors like where are you going, nothing is open
people who abandon their kids
psychos who really get off on murder they are creepy and i wouldn't feel bad if i shot him multiple times
people who call hands "squeezers"
getting carried like a sack of potatoes
dehydration, which is actually worse than starvation tbh
starvation, because it still sucks
people who use the word "metrosexual" to mean people with basic hygiene
people who act like basic hygiene makes them better than you
fleas, ticks, mites, mosquitos, flies, spiders, and any other biting insects
people who think essential oils or herbal supplements do anything
the way these devices are set up to go on your arm? like who decided that was even remotely convenient? That's stupid. if i'm getting attacked i'm going to put my arms up in defense to protect my face or neck, why would i want my phone to be on that so i can't call for help after being attacked because it broke when i was defending myself?
people who put ingredients on top of celery to disguise the fact that they dont like celery just eat another vegetable

there's more but i'm tired

You hate a lot of things

I'll remember them
Or try
To not make you mad

If you can think of that many
I want to try too

[And approximately 1 hour later:]

-People who think they understand your feelings
-People who don't give others time to respond
-People who try to force me to talk
-Not being taken seriously
-Judgmental people
-Being misunderstood
-Studio fees
-Music equipment being expensive
-When Kedama eats cockroaches
-When the trains stop too early
-Living far away from Uenoyama-kun
-Not being able to see people I love
-Loneliness

I think that's most of it
It's more than I thought

[ She waits for him to finish before she replies again. ]

You don't have to be anything you're not, I like you as-is.

That's a good list though.

Studio fees?

Really?

[Another pause, though it's briefer this time.]

Thanks
You too

I didn't want to repeat things you already wrote
But you're convincing
Maybe more things annoy me than I realized

For practicing
With the band
You have to pay

yeah you're like one of the least annoying people i know.

practice in public until someone offers to pay for you to go into a studio so they dont have to listen 24/7 :) no matter how good you are or aren't no one wants to listen to loud music against their will

Thanks
That's a huge compliment... I think
Coming from you

I guess so
Unless the police tell us to stop

There are 4 of us in the band
So we split the cost
But I'm a broke high school student

don't let it go to your head.

cops are the worst.

maybe you can get some privacy cubes and take them home with you.

People like to play live music on the street to promote themselves
But it's not allowed in most places
That's why we have live houses

But that would be nice
I've never used one before

That Lumin-whatever guy sells them. The wandering salesman.

[ She doesn't remember if that's his name or not. It's close enough. ]

Have you used one before?

[Close enough for Mafuyu.]

Maybe I can use one here
If they're less expensive than studios

But I don't have a reason to use a studio anyway
So it's easiest to play at my apartment

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